Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Busy is the new Happy

So in exactly one month from today, I will be wearing a white dress walking towards my handsome husband in the most dapper suit. I get butterflies just thinking about that day. I also get a headache ha. My engagement got cut three months short, but that just means I get 3 more months of being Mrs. Fox.

We decided not to have a reception just because we will be getting married in North Carolina, where neither of us really know anybody, so our wedding will be just a smaller intimate event with just family and really close friends.

On another super exciting note: ME AND MICHAEL GOT OUR FIRST APARTMENT! I move in on September 6th and Michael will move in after we get married, last weekend in September! It has been my job to get everything set up for this new apartment, including electricity, Wi-Fi, renters insurance, and all that fun jazz. I actually have been kind of enjoying doing so because it really makes me feel like a grown up, cause this is grown up stuff. Also it really makes me realize that Michael and me are starting our life together and we get to do all of this together. It makes it not as boring.

There’s a lot of stuff going on lately, but it is a good kind of busy, it is getting me to better things!

Sunday, August 18, 2013


There are rare times on Pinterest that you come across a quote that literally changes your entire day, your entire week, and sometimes your whole perspective. Almost like a slap in the face saying "this is what you need to realize!!!!" Almost like someone has been standing in front of you shouting at you for the past month and you have been smothering their voice with your ignorance. That's kinda what went down this morning when I came across this quote by of course none less than the infamous Gordon B. Hinkley. Who doesn't love him? Sometimes I so wish I could call up the prophets and apostles of this church and talk to them like they were my grandpa, I feel like that would help me so much in times of trial. And then I remember that, I have the next best thing. All of the best advice ever given on each and every topic imaginable has been compiled for us to turn to in times of trial or trouble. 

For me particularly this piece of advice was just what I needed in my time of trial and trouble. After receiving I think the most negative news one could receive last week, I allowed myself a couple solid hours to cry, and then I decided that in the most negative time, I am going to make this the most positive time. 

I feel like satan is pushing me to believe that I have every gosh dang reason to put my life on hold and to let his spirit to drag me down, to strip me of my happiness. 

And then God comes in and pushes me to believe that I am the most blessed person in this world. That my spirit needs to be on top of the clouds. 

So I've decided to let God win, and I am moving on and living with the happiest of spirits, and in this moment, I could not be any bit happier with my life despite its trials and troubles, because I know they are what make me strong. And because of this, I know eventually in time, everything will find a way of working out. 

Thanks for listening to my random Sunday rant. 

Monday, August 12, 2013

Army Wife In Training

Soooo I'm marrying an American Soldier, so what?
HA! I wish it were that simple. The army is not a career, it is not a side job, it is not a hobby, nor is it a joke. The army is a LIFESTYLE. I am slowly but learning this first hand.
When me and Michael first started dating all I could think about was the fact that I don’t know the first thing about the army, and that I never pictured it my life, but who cares I’m dating this sexy dude! He can be my own Channing Tatum on Dear John just without the break up. Again, if only if were that simple.
There’s some things I have grown to learn over the past 8 months about the army, I am no expert but I do know some...

1.   There is never a plan
2.   They do not care one bit about your home life
3.  There are LOTS of little codes that stand for things and they expect everyone to know this secret code language

4.  They like to embarrass the soldiers of lower ranks
5.  In the south and the east coast, soldiers really don’t get the respect they deserve because there are so many, and I think that is ridiculous.
6.  There are a lot of INCREDIBLY strong women standing behind the men of our country

7.  You never know what is going to happen, and the people in charge can change their mind whenever they want. Kind of going back to #1.

8.  The benefits are really good, but for all the crap you have to put up with, they dang well better be!
9.  Everyone looks good in an army uniform, especially my fiancé. They kind of hold the same power as a baseball uniform; everyone magically becomes attractive when they wear one.

10.      Again to add emphasis, NOTHING ever goes your way.

11.      They take their sweet old time to make huge decisions that affect, living, deployment, job titles, ranks, and so on…we are ALWAYS “waiting to find out”

No this list does not cover it all but you get the idea, it’s freaking hard. And yes it does take a lot of me and I’m not even the solider!!
I have come to realize that I have one huge purpose as a soon to be “army wife: (ps: I hate that cheesy phrase) it is to love and support my soon to be husband in whatever way needed! I need to stay strong and supportive in whatever the army asks of us, yes I would love to sit there and complain to Michael about how much all of this sucks and can’t he just have a regular job? How are we going to live our life always uncertain? And the list of complaints could go on, but they don’t. There is no reason to add to the stress and contention of the army by bringing it home. My job is to create a home full of peace and shelter from that crazy life.
There will be days that I want to walk right up to every sergeant on base and give them a piece of my mind filled with some not so nice words, but most of my days will be realizing how blessed I am to be living the life that I do, and looking over at my gorgeous husband every night (that he is home) will be an excellent reminder. 

PS: Thanks to the ever so helpful site Pinterest for helping me find some cheesy but true pictures to get my point across!

Tuesday, August 6, 2013


One of the hardest things in life is putting trust in God, trusting that he knows more than we do, and trusting that he knows what is best. During this decade of decisions that I am inevitably stuck in, I am constantly putting my faith in God to lead me to do the right thing.  That doesn’t mean it’s easy and that doesn’t mean I always agree with God nor does it always mean that I want to do what he leads me too. But eventually, somewhere down the line, I smile knowing that he was right.