Thursday, October 30, 2014

The Good, the Bad, and the Ugly.

This is mainly just going to be a venting post so feel free to pass if those aren’t your thing!

I normally try to keep my Instagram and blog really positive; without being fake of course! However as of the last couple weeks it has been brought to my attention of some accounts that were stealing Milan’s photos. With anything, once it’s on the internet you really have no control of where it ends up. And this is so so hard. It’s hard to find the balance of all the good that the internet and social media has to offer, but this bad is still mixed in and there’s nothing we can do about that!

I LOVE social media. I love all the memories that it holds. I always find myself going back a year or two on my posts and I find my emotions right back to what they were that day. I love how easy it is to keep all my pictures in a (hopefully) secure place that I can always have no matter if my computer crashes, or my phone randomly deletes them (this has happened). I LOVE all of the amazing mama’s and ladies I’ve “met” through social media. Seriously some of my best friends and the people I look up to the most have come through Instagram and blogging! It is so easy to find people who you related to and grow to love them and watch their lives unfold. I love that when I feel like I’m struggling a little or just having a down day I will receive an email from someone just saying how something I’ve done or posted has impacted them. Those are my favorite emails. But seriously- SO many good things come from social media.

But then your babies picture gets stole and used for some new game creepers do where they pretend to actually be these kids and create a little life for them. I don’t understand most of it-just that it’s flat out disgusting. My WORST nightmare. It is like my little baby has been online kidnapped in a sense and my mama bear kicks in and immediately I want to delete my Instagram and blog along with every picture I’ve ever posted of her and keep her to myself. Keep her in the safety of my home for my eyes only.

But that wouldn’t be fair to me. I love our memories. I love looking back at our memories. I want to be able to look back in 5 years and remember every single detail of her, what she liked, what got her to smile, her favorite toy, what I was feeling, how fast she was changing-all of it, I want to remember all of it.

Now I could go on private-but who says the 10k+ people that are already following me wouldn’t do the same? I really do try to look at everyone who comments and follows me to avoid things like this-but sometimes you truly can’t tell. I guess it’s just the day that we live in now, is that going to stop me from memory keeping? Is that going to keep me from sharing my baby girl and her growing with all of her family that is all over the country? No. I will not let it. There is too much good to let the bad take over.

Tuesday, October 28, 2014


Baby items that have kept me sane. Most of these types of lists are called “must haves” or baby necessities” when really they are just the items that have kept me sane and that give me a happy baby, which makes a happy mama! Will my baby die without these? No. Will I die without these…maybe;)  

1.     Flannel swaddle blankets. I’m just throw this out there. -Aden and Anis SUCK. I for one am not a fan of those swaddle blankets! I know lots of people SWEAR by them…that’s why I got them! Now I just have them sitting in the closet cause I can’t stand them. They don’t hold a swaddle worth crap. I am so glad I wasn’t fully depending on those or else Milan would never be swaddled for more than 5 minutes. We have been living in our flannel blankets that I made. Super easy 40x40 inches of any flannel fabric surged around the edges! I could leave her in the same swaddle for 10 hours and it would not be smidge looser! Which saves me because she LOVES to be swaddled, only way she’ll sleep and it calms her down almost instantly.

2.     Mamaroo. This was the ONE item I was hoping to get as a gift and thank the heavens above I did! Milan slept solely in her mamaroo for the first 2-3 weeks! Only place we could set her down without waking up!  Now we kind of do a mix, I put her to bed in the mamaroo, and halfway through the night I switch her to her crib-she doesn’t sleep awesome in her crib yet so I don’t get as much sleep but we are doing it gradually! But all of her naps are in the mamaroo as well! Love it!
3.     Lavender bath wash. We’ve used Johnson and Johnson and just recently switched to Burts Bees because she had a rash that I thought could be her wash-it wasn’t cause switching didn’t help, but anyways! Any lavender scented baby wash and lotion works and helps her sleep SO much better at night! She normally always gives me a 6 hour stretch at first from 9pm- 3am, but on nights we don’t give her a bath, its every 2 hours!

4.     Fawn Design Diaper Bag. I don’t know why; but a diaper bag was the baby item that gave me the most stress. Actually I do know why! They are either all crazy cheap looking with butterflies and ladybugs, crazy expensive, way too huge and just looked ridiculous on my small frame, or not enough pockets. I actually bought FOUR different bags before I found this one last minute. I KNEW I wanted one that I could use as a backpack. I’m not a huge purse person to begin with so the thought of carrying around a big purse and a big car seat sounded like torture to me. I knew I wanted one with outside pockets that I could easily slip my phone and wallet into or other items I need to be able to grab quick. And I knew I wanted it to be extremely gender neutral so that Michael could carry it for extended amounts of time without feeling ridiculous. The Fawn Design diaper bag has all of these! I wish I had found it earlier, which would have saved me from wasting money on 4 other diaper bags to only be disappointed time and time again. But seriously-the whole thing is Leather and the inside has accents of a super cute bumble bee print that is all able to wipe down! No worries of staining or ripping fabric! Also I can stick a dirty diaper in in without stressing that the smell is going to soak into the fabric! It’s big enough to hold all I need, but small enough that it doesn’t look ridiculous! I always have with me my camera, my modern wrap, my nursing cover, a change of clothes for her, socks, a burp cloth, 5-6 diapers, wipes, and a swaddle blanket and by no means is the bag cramped or stuffed! Love this bag!
5.     White noise nature music. I just bought an album on iTunes with 110 tracks… Milan absolutely hates the car-and while we haven’t mastered calming her down in the car quite yet- this music does the best. I also play it and put it in her car seat anytime we’re out to eat or somewhere that it’s kind of loud to tune out all the other noises and help keep her asleep- it’s AMAZING at keeping her asleep!
6.     Modern Wrap Nursing cover. When your baby is a MAJOR comfort nurser, doesn’t take a pacifier or bottle and is on the boob pretty much 24/7-your bound to have to nurse in public. Not here to debate whether nursing in public is wrong or right but for me-I knew I wanted to go a year with breastfeeding but I was not about to become a hermit for the next year of my life. However, it is out of my comfort level to flash everyone in the restaurant my boob. But it is also out of my comfort level to nurse on a toilet or in my car every time my baby needs some comforting. This cover is my lifesaver. It completely covers me from collarbones to hipbones on my front and back.  It’s like a giant poncho. I can nurse walking around the grocery store or sitting down in the restaurant booth-all being completely covered. It gives me my freedom.
I’m sure my “keep me sane” items with change as she gets older and learns more things, but for now this is it!

Ps: I’ve been totally slacking on blogging lately but I’m really going to try to do it more! Me and Milan are really setting into a little schedule so it should be easier!

Friday, October 10, 2014


ONE month. How? I don’t think my little mommy heart can handle how fast time is going, how fast she is changing and growing. I’m going to blink and send her off to kindergarten.

What Milan loves:
  • Eating. Man can that girl really put it away.
  • Being swaddled extremely tight
  • Sitting up so she can see everything
  • Being bounced and swayed
  • Kisses on the cheek
  • Lights
  • Air blowing on her
  • Windows down
  • Nature music really loud
  • Being outside

What Milan does not like:
  • Her car seat. Actually hates it. Unless she is asleep before hand and we are really careful to not wake her- she screams the entire time she is in it, no matter how long. Breaks my heart and makes long drives really difficult.
  • Her binky
  • Having to toot or go potty
  • Laying down on her back
  • Bath time. She is really calm after the bath- just not in it. She does like taking a bath WITH mommy, just not alone.
  • Napping. What the heck I thought newborns slept a lot? Not mine that’s for sure. She will be awake for 4+ hours and take a ten-minute nap, up for another 4+ hours. So chores don’t get done at my house haha!

She has been sick for about a week so her sleeping schedule was messed up, but she has nights where she gives 2; 5 hour stretches, and other nights she wakes up at 4 am ready for the day!

She is still totally in newborn-some still don’t fit! I am not positive how much she weighs cause her doctor’s appointment is next week! But I can really see some rolls forming!! 

EDITED: 8 POUNDS 11 OUNCES (26%) and 21 INCHES (56%)

Can we talk about how FAST this month went by? I still can’t get over it! We are in total dreamland with our baby girl!

Friday, October 3, 2014


Something about having Milan has brought out the crazy sentimental memory keeper in me! I find myself having a freakout if I haven't taken a picture of her that day or if I miss something cute on video! So I decided I would start doing monthly photo drops! It is the easiest way for me to keep track of our life in a somewhat organized fashion! If you haven't noticed-this blog is basically my journal, a way for me to "scrapbook" in a sense. I go back and read old posts all the time and I love reflecting on all our memories so easily! So without further adieu- here is septembers photo drop! What an eventful month it was!
Last bump picture on the way to the hospital!

Going home!

Cousins meeting for the first time!

Auntie Izzy